They say
They say that we live and die
we CREATE AND PERISH
We wonder and accept
They say
We flow thru time and change
We experience
We feel
We cry and we hate
WE love and cry and act like we havent
We act tougher than we are
to survive this life of ours
We possess and we forget
We barely get by and leave with nothing
So tell me, are you alive or
dead? Are you alive or they?
Suicide - holy attempt
There’s blood on the floor
Believe me believe me
There is blood on the floor
Can’t you see?
The black sea
What is that you see
Through your colorblind eyes
Can’t you see the thorned
throne spilling blood on the
floor
Believe me believe me
Theres roses on the floor
About to blossom
Looking for light, life, through
the eternal cave
A black hole
It was tragically beautiful
To see the rose try to blossom
In tears of agony
In hopes for an answer
Cant you see can’t you see
Theres blood in your heart
Another attempt
It’s like. . . I’m always standing at
the edge of a cliff
Ready to jump
And I look back again and again
Expecting you to be there
And each time I look back you
arent
But when I turn I feel as if
you’re right there
And I smile
And look back out into the
distance
preparing
Now I am an inky black
In a hole deep under
Swirling waves
keep me under
I am dying it seems
But peacefully
unafraid
no anger in my soul
just eyes searching
searching for you
Who was I meant to be
Who was I meant to be when
God made me
Who was I meant to be when
my mother loved me
Who was I meant to be when
my father taught me
Who was I meant to be when I
saw your face
Who was I meant to be when I
lost you
Who was I meant to be when I
smiled to myself on the subway
Because you were so charming
When I laughed to myself all
alone
Because the world was so
beautiful
Who was I meant to be when I
hated myself
Who was I meant to be when I
felt I was better off dead
Who was I meant to be when I
touched your arm and smiled at
you
I am dying
I am dying
I can[t remember the last time I
felt alive
I am dying
Was it when we first saw each
other
At my girlfriend’s birthday
party?
Was it when you texted me for
the first time
When you kissed me on the
cheek in a moment so
unexpected
I couldn't believe it was
happening
When we watched that movie
and you put your leg on top of
mine
so casually
surely you knew what you were
doing
I think I died that day
Because you showed me a
moment
I could never have again
And that I have hungered for
ever since
I am empty now